if i were to crush this $100, will you still want it?

if i were to step on the crushed $100, will you still want it?

yes you would, because it's still $100 no matter what i do to it.

and this is akin to the value of a person, because people can crush and step on you, but the value in you would never change, and only your loved ones will know that and love you still the same. so no matter what happens, please don't ever doubt yourself just because someone doubted you, and you can be sure to count on your loved ones.

thank you mr koh, discipline master of htbc that made me cry, because i really needed those encouraging words at times like this. :)

It's been two months and I have already cut my hair for the 4th time. Such a short time span reveals that the short hair has been trying hard to satisfy me under the hands of different barbers and hairstylists, and yes, failing. and what makes me think that this time it would be any different?

Sigh, that optimistic streak in me did. It acts up at times when it shouldn't have. And I should really just stop trusting people who talk to me nicely and be ever so willing to give them the benefit of doubt, that hey who knows, the amazing things that they are trying to talk me into will really happen and everything will be perfect once they have done what they are trying to talk me into. And everytime I put my specs on why am I overwhelmed by disappointment that I can only try to mask, and I will smile back at the nice person who has been working on the hair that now looks even more terrible than before, in my very very humble opinion. Yet I can never bring myself to tell them the honest truth, and it pains me when I need to pay the bill, and to keep saying thankyou to them.

SIGH, it kills me. The perfect hairstylist who will understand my problematic hair, where the freaking hell are you working at?

I get bored wearing the same cap every weekend you know. :(

I miss my long boring rebonded hair even, at least its not kuku.

and im not going to book out this saturday.

reason: DEPLOYMENT. again.

Hahaha, but it's kind of fun, just that when it's not planned properly things tend to get messy.

anyway it has been a fun and exciting training week though worries will never fail to run off and play by its own, always circling me and tugging at my clothes. These days there are so many things on my mind. Well, it shows how much this means to me, by the extent how everything bothers me. Haha.

I wish we could just hang out at the malls again and laugh today's worries away.

But it's okay, I still have on my smile and laughter. :)

and now I'm going in again. Much loves. I miss everyone, seriously.

but not serious enough to call the ambulance.